Heh, so, haven't been here for a while. As everyone knows, kurt and mine's acquaintance was short lived. I've been depressed and took it out on my other blog. Poor thing. Anyhow, I've got shit I want to get out of the way, so I'm posting a few songs here.
I hated you somedays,
Was so confused because
you threw our love away
Tore up my world,
Now I'm glad you didn't stay,
Was so naive back then,
All alone and I was scared,
Believing noone cared
So I was
Chorus:
Hating you while I love you so,
Wasting time, not letting go,
I don't know,
how I got through
got over you while I was hurting,
while I missed you,
I don't know.
Somedays I wanted to Yell
wanted to hurt you
wanted to damn you to hell,
and you deserved it,
For all the nights I cried your name,
And I know that was Lame,
But I was crazy
My heart was breaking,
My soul was shaking
And I was
Chorus
I thought if I'd just wait,
you'd come back to me,
Didn't even know it
was allready too late,
That you'd moved on
before we were through
So I sat Wasting my time
Worrying
You'd figure yourself out,
Not want me, and now
Even though now Its over,
And I've given up on you and me,
Every Day I keep growing,
and Knowing that I'll find what I need,
In love, now that I'm done,
Chorus:
Yeah, I posted a different version of this a few months back, it's crap, but Jennifer was kind enough to review it. Meanwhile:
I gave my heart and all I got,
were pieces mailed back in a box marked
"Return to sender, too much postage due"
you were everything to me,
And I wasn't shit to you.
And for a while I was angry,
For a while I was upset,
The hurt overwhelmed me,
I couldn't believe I'd let,
it happen to me, but then again,
I settled for crumbs from the begining,
and You know that's the truth,
I took the crumbs you kept tossing,
because they're all I got from you,
If I had pride I lost it,
when you came into my heart,
the heart that's now in a broken little box,
the peices torn apart
And taped onto the box,
that holds the pieces,
is a note,
a tattered slip of paper that
and it reads,
"Sorry to do this to you,
And I swear it's no one's fault,
And if I could I'd be with you,
But Now as things stand,
I never want to see you again"
Do you know it did to me,
To see how you said?
Do you know what it meant,
How it's now stuck in my head,
since we're through,
I can say,
Yes I loved you,
And I thought that you loved me,
I thought I needed you,
And I just cant believe,
that though we're through,
I'm a Fool
I'll still take crumbs from you.
That's more post break up angst, god, I'm sick of all this Shit.
Sitting alone,
watching all the world pass me by,
try to join in for a while,
Watching as my Friends
Wander off to other ends
and leave me all alone
so I'm sitting here at home cause
No body gives a shit about me,
It's all part of the stupid
selfish mentality
No one gives a shit about me
might as well be on a shelf
sitting alone all by myself.
Then I try,
To treat them like I should
but I cry,
cause they've never understood
that being friends's a two way road
sort of an unspoken code.
I follow but still~
I'm utterly pathetic, maybe not, I don't care, I just wish I'd quit breathing cause the novelty's worn off. I don't mean it, least not right now. God, Friday, Hurry up and get here. Had a knife earlier, not smart, not smart, hurry up Friday, please please Please